wooden heart

The exams were boring as fuck, I kept falling asleep after completing the tasks - what others needed one hour for I had finished in twenty minutes and I wasn't allowed to leave the room before all the others had finished so go figure how infinitely bored I was. So I kind of just caught up with the sleep I'd missed in the morning since I had to wake up at 5 a.m. to be in Chur at 7:30. And then I did my homework at GC's place and waited for him to come home and then I went to sleep because I was exhausted.

And then came the nightmares. I haven't had them in ages (and when I say in ages I mean like one and a half years at least). They were the same as back then. Recurring nightmares. I hate them. So naturally I slept really badly and felt like shit in the morning but I had to force GC out of bed because he had a music rehearsal. And then I went back t sleep, kept waking up but not that often. GC woke me up at 1:00 p.m. when he'd come back from rehearsals and by then I guess I had gotten just enough sleep to function. An espresso did the rest of the job, thank God.

Then I kept trying to suppress outbursts of tears because the Sads have kicked in as I already said. I felt better later because we went for a walk and then had a shower and stuff so the pressure went away mostly but that doesn't change the fact that I've gotten worse so tomorrow I'm calling my psychotwat and telling her to recommend me to someone over here.

So yeah. Sorry for the rant. I need to get all the negative stuff out of my system or one day I swear I'll explode.

Nevertheless I had fun today, at least for the past few hours - it was really sunny today and we made cookie dough for tomorrow to bake, I'm looking forward to it. It feels surreal - surreal but wonderful - that even though it's Sunday I don't have to rush back to the dorms. I can just relax and stay here and be with GC. Me likey.

/P.