Missing U

Well, I'm back. Kinda. Okay, half of me is back. The other half is with a truly wonderful person named D.

Yeah I know I said he was only a very close friend, but hey, things change, it's in their nature. At the beginning I was scared that I might be in some way cheating on S, but to be honest, I really don't give a shit. (This is the moment when the audience gives me a standing O) For fourteen days, I was in a state of total happiness. (And now come the awwwws and ooohs) What else could I ask for? For one thing, I could ask for him to stay. To hold me. To never let go. Blah blah blah all the romantic humbug, that makes me smile and think of him..... Jesus I am one heap of feelings. I wonder why my feelings always have a negative effect on me in the end. I mean, I was happy for two weeks, but now he's gone for a whole fucking year. Knowing me, I'll go through all the trouble and wait that fucking year, but him.... He's an honest guy, a good guy, so maybe my hopes are not in vain. Omigosh I feel like a twelve-year-old chatting about her first love. So embarrassing. Whatever.

I miss my class............ Why do all the fun people have to go?! No offense, E, and everybody else, I haven't forgotten about you ;) I wannna go shopping!!! (Here I burst out crying on the scene)

OK I have the urge to tell you about my wonderful most important teddybear. (ugh, sticky sweet, not good)
He's honest, not only with others, but with himself. He has a very mature view of the world, and it's fun to listen to him talk about the state of the world, especially because of the characteristic sarkazm he puts into his stories. He's sensitive, but won't admit it. He can make me smile even in the most terrible situation. He smells nice... I forgot to ask him what aftershave he uses, come to think of it. He has the most awesome pair of eyes I've ever seen.... brown around the pupils, then green, then dark blue around the edges. He likes silence, but listens to killswitch and slash. He's the person I want to have with me always.