Succeeded in being optimistic today, actually started laughing because of L. She totally knows how to cheer me up, even if she didn't know she was.
S is mad at me because I "told" E about us, but well, who would have expected someone I know reads my blog? ;)
I hate it when he's mad at me. I mean it was so obvious he's been hitting on me for ages, and even Alex asked me if there was something going on between us. And he was never told a word. I don't understand what's the big deal. Everyone will know soon enough, without me doing anything. Gossip will spread, people will see us e.g. holding hands somewhere in town, I don't know, anything. So why not admit it? Frustrating.
He can be so cold, jeez.
Tried to reach Gregory's mom, she wouldn't pick up the phone, but I'm not going to give up that easily. I want to know where he's gonna be buried. She should stop ignoring me just because I stood up for Gregory and told her she was stupid to be angry at him for being gay. I was so mad at her then. But she should understand.
I've decided to give love a chance. If he really thinks he loves me, I'l love him back. :) If he's just playing, then too bad, why should I cry for something that wasn't worth it.
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Urgh. Im sorry, I thought Sascha knew but he was talking about something else so yeah. But why arent you telling people anyways?
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Because it's terribly complicated. First he doesn't want people talking, I thought it was weird but I said okay. Then on second thought I didn't want others to know myself because of his oh so good reputation. Jeez it's getting out of control already, so no-one's really at fault, and I don't blame you, don't worry.
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