falling to pieces

Sometimes I have this feeling in my chest, like I can't breathe properly.

It's like something's trying to get out.

It fills me with this indescribable sadness and longing for something, but I don't know what, like I'm missing something but can't remember what.

It's just that I want to be happy for once. Like, really happy. I want to be able to say that I'm glad to be alive and that I'm loved and that I can look to the future with hope and confidence. I want to be able to say that I want to stay here, that I want to live.

/P.