Jealous?

Right. I never thought I'd live up to this day. So the boyfriend has this best friend, and she's a girl. Yes, sounds like drama material to me, too. But you see, here's the thing: It's not. She has a boyfriend herself, who by chance also happens to be the boyfriend's best friend too. And she's really nice, both of them are. I don't exactly belong to the group yet, but they accept me as "the boyfriend's girlfriend" basically. It's a start.
Anyway.
I know I shouldn't, but I feel uneasy when that girl is around the boyfriend. It's not like I act different with other people than when it's just the two of us, so it's not a problem of "distance" or anything. It's just that legère way she has with him that I don't. It's something only best friends can share, I can't really explain it, but once you're bf and gf then that... aura or whatever ceases to exist. You have other things best friends don't have, but the intimacy is on a different level. Yeah, intimacy is the right word. And that's what I'm jealous of. Even though I have more than enough. It's just something I want but I'm scared of it at the same time. The closeness would be too much to handle when it comes down to being completely honest and trust one another. You know why.

/P.