crazy?

"You know, you act really random all the time, but nobody seems to notice or care. Is it because they're used to it or because your randomness comes over so naturally that nobody actually realizes it?" --J.

I don't know. I just act on impulse, I say what I think or feel at the present moment, I'm very direct at times. I used to care about what to say and whether it was bad manners to say this and that... but then I thought, fuck that shit. I'll just be honest. The acting on impulse is more of an impulse really. (No pun intended.) It just started one day and well yeah, it's just stayed like that. I can't really explain it. It's.just a part of who I am.
People do react to my behavior. Sometimes they're taken aback, or they think it's funny, or they ignore it, or they are the same, or they just smile and think "that girl needs to grow up".
What does growing up mean, anyway? Becoming an adult doesn't necessarily change one's behavior or  humor or habits. My mother still laughs at my aunt's pervy jokes that used to be funny during middle school. A friend of ours still plays silly games like story telling with her husband when she's bored because it's still fun. All this seriousness is so pressuring, nobody tells about the half childish stuff grown-ups do. So don't tell me to grow up. I'll stay a kid for as long as possible, until society kicks that kid out of me by force. Is it so bad? I don't think so.

/P.