Contradictions

Feels like I haven't been here for ages.... I kinda missed this little place of truth :)
My Grandma's here until Wednesday, which means no fun, no going out 'til late, no drinking, no nothing. Sad, isn't it? Oh well, at least I got to do some shopping while I sent her off to the botanic garden... The only place one can send her to without any whining or suspicions. You know I was sent to her for a week when I was seven to learn manners from her? I had to sit at a table and name all the different sorts of forks and knives and bowls and plates and ugh it was terrible! But now I'm praised for my good manners at table and my way of acting in "good society". I mean really, I'm not exactly going to be an heiress of any kind or princess two hundred years ago who would actually need this kind of education. It's all about money and power now. Who cares how old the perverted geezer is who's looking at you lustily all the time?? As long as he has enough money to buy you a house and some new clothes, it's okay. Anything you wish, Mister Rich. Seriously. What the hell?! I mean look at all those girls, barely over twenty, walking around with seventy-year-olds with absolutely no hair on their heads and no abilities in bed whatsoever and sometimes maybe even total weirdos. Ugh. Gross. I don't understand how one can be so desperate.
Mum always tells me: If you meet a man who makes you think he's the man of your dreams and he'll make you happy for sure, then check his wallet fast. If it's full; lucky girl, he's your man! But if it's empty; hard luck honey, look for someone else. It's brutal, yes, but in a way true. I don't think I still believe in true love anymore. It's all about sex and money now. If I ever meet a couple that has stayed true to one another for all it's life, not once thinking of a better would-have-been-future, not once looking at another woman/man, not once doubting the other, then I will, I swear this, believe and spend the rest of my life in a lonely apartment regretting my mistake in earlier life, ruining it irreversibly. There.
Father once told me: If it is true love, then nothing will be able to stop it or force the feeling to falter. Trust and Loyalty are the key to a healthy and long relationship. Funny that Mum and Father divorced, isn't it? They had both gone against their word, and here they are, regretting. The two counsels are so different and contradicting... Which should I follow? Which should I deny? The time will come when I'll have to know the answer. Money makes the world go round... But what would we do without love?
xoxo, pxy

PS: So sorry for the cliffy atmosphere... just had to.. go with the flow, I was in the mood. Sentimental stuff and so on. Ya know. :*