montreux

I'm in Montreux for a week, and GC is stuck in a bunker. It's rainy here and no phone connection there. So yeah, this weeks sucks.
And I don't even know if I can go to his place on Saturday, even though it's his birthday. I really really really want to go. I do. But I don't know about my condition. I've been feeling terrible for some time and it won't go away. I keep trying to suppress it, but we all know it's all bound to explode at some point. God damn it.
And what about his birthday present? He says he doesn't want one, but I want to give him something. I already have a present for our one year anniversary next month, but not for his birthday... I hate this. What can I give him? What could I possibly get him??

/P.