disillusioned

"Come and take a walk on the wild side

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let's go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime"

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I've been thinking about things more than ever recently. It's depressing, really. Even worse if you discuss the world for 1 1/2 hours in a dark park with somebody whom you usually wouldn't even meet up with for a second time out of principle - but fuck principles, I've given them up long ago anyway.

I've been thinking about the happy-go-lucky version of me, too. It sounds so, so tempting. You know, prance through life with not a care in the world. Tell everyone to fuck off with their worries and problems. Truth is, it's not that easy. I may be egocentric - this whole world is, anyway - but I can't just shut off everything. Despite everything I see what's going on around me and I can't turn away from it.

Example (for the egocentric character of our fellow citizens): There were two guys fighting in the school yard during the 10:00 break. One guy was pretty upset and really beating the other one up. And what did the other students do? Go on, make a guess. Bingo. Nothing. Nobody gave a shit. Nobody thought of trying to separate them. I wasn't there personally because I was talking to LR in the hallway, but then some classmates told me about it. Even they said they should have done something, but at the time they "just didn't know how to react". I'm not saying that I don't believe them. I'd probably be quite shocked too, actually. But come on, at least one of those students could have called a teacher if they didn't have the courage to step in themselves.

It's an important - though not very flattering - characteristic of us humans: we're much too egocentric, and that makes us cowards, too. The basic mentality is "this doesn't concern me, I'm sure someone else will do it for me". Bullshit. No-one will move so much a s a finger unless it's yourself. Simple.

And most people who prey on others (in any way, even if it's the local 'thugs' cornering a girl coming home after school) are scared away by merely someone stepping in and saying something. They'reused to people looking away and not caring, so that's what they expect, of course. Change that. Go up to them. They'll be confused and will back away. I've tried it and it works, so I'm not just giving you readers a moral lecture here.

So yeah, so much for Hypocrisy of Society 101.

/P.