i've wanted to say this for some time now

Let's be serious. If gayness was forbidden, it wouldn't exist. And what is "forbidden", anyway? It's just what a majority of people decided on many many years ago, and only because a minority of people dictated the idea into their heads. That's the truth.
Many may say that two people of the same sex feeling sexually and emotionally attracted to each other are "not normal", freaks, social outcasts. Why? Because they love each other? Because they feel connected and want to spend the rest of their lives together? Aren't these emotions the same as the ones heterosexual people feel? You can't deny that. Homosexuality is inborn. It's fucking natural.
I believe that everybody in this world has someone predestined for them. Whether they actually find that person at some point in their lives is another question, but there is this special person somewhere out there, for everyone. Something like a soul mate, the second half, however you want to call it. Mostly it's someone from the opposite sex. Sometimes they happen to be of the same gender. And then, so what? They're not hurting anyone, they're not terrorizing the community, they're not trying to force anybody to be homosexual too. So what the fuck is your problem, dear homophobs? Tell me. I want to understand.

And then, another thing. Let's assume you're a male individual. You have a friend whom you've know for, say, six years. One day this friend tells you that he's realized that he feels attracted to men. At this moment, there is one thing that you absolutely are not allowed to do: don't feel grossed out. The only thing that has changed is that you know one more thing about your friend, nothing more. They're still the same fucking person. They're still the same person you've known for six years, believe me, and the fact that they're gay doesn't change a thing. And please don't feel anxious around them because you think they'll pounce on you. Mostly you're not their type anyway. The same goes for girls.


To make my point clear, there are 5 golden rules:

1. Homosexuality is not contagious. You won't become gay just because you spend a lot of time with a gay person.

2. Being friends with a homosexual person doesn't automatically make you gay too in the eyes of society. It's like with religions. If your friend is Jewish, it doesn't mean you're Jewish too.

3. If a friend comes out of the closet, don't freak out. Instead, feel honored, because they put enough trust in you to tell you such a thing.

4. Don't act different around your homosexual friend, they're still the same person. Acting different just makes things awkward and difficult for both sides.

5. Love is love. There is no such thing as differentiation in love, not even in terms of gender/sexuality.

/P.

it's a mad world

defining me

anger surge 2.0

Yep it's one of those moments again. When I would destroy the world if I could. Of course half of it is all drama and me wanting attention, but in a way it's true. I feel so angry and frustrated because of everything and anything. I initially got pissed because my brother kept walking around his room. Yeah, it's such a good reason to get angry, right? I mean, what the fuck?! That is no reason to be so angry! But no, of course I have to lose it and get furious and go for a looong walk and contemplate ways of killing him and burying him deep in the woods and kick the hell out of a tree with an old couple looking at me weirdly. Now I'm back home (Captain Obvious saves the day) and still pissed. Nope, still no reason. Except maybe my aching toe (kicked the tree too hard after all).

/P.

anger surge (or: to my friend)

I'm not who you think I am. Deep inside I'm not the friendly, happy person you think you know. I'm mean. I'm sarcastic. I'm violent.

You wouldn't understand. How could you? You're just a kid. You're a kid with perfect parents, a perfect life, you're spoiled, you have no sense of tact; you're not capable of understanding.

So shut up, go away. Stop being nice to me. Leave me alone.
I hate you. Hate me back.
I can't hurt you.
I depend on you. I like you. I need you.
So I hate you.

/P.

I'm sorry, I just had to ^^

is this guy a legend, or a male whore?

Mood Swings

They say PMS comes with age. Fuck them, I have it already. Or maybe it's just my puberting hormones. Puberting.... is that even a word? I don't feel like googling it.
...Okay it's not a word. It's actually pubescing. Wtf I have never heard that word before. Weirdo dictionary. Pff.

I've been having extreme mood swings lately. Like, more extreme than usually. Today during physics I was like high on... something... I guess I can get high on oxygen, you never know with me (or LR). Anyways the point is that I felt really happy. And it was this feeling of happiness that's real, not just being okay with life, I was genuinely happy. Like, happy happy.
And then I came home, and I was talking to my mom about some article she had read and it... just hit me. I felt so damn sad that I started crying. For no reason whatsoever. I mean I was perfectly normal until then, in a normal conversation about nothing special, and then this. My mom got quite a fright. And then comes the question: why am I sad? I don't know. I just am.
Do I need a reason to be sad? Because I don't need a reason to be happy, I just feel good and glad and that's it. So can't it be the same thing with sadness?

What annoys me is that my moods change drastically, if at all. I have exactly 4 moods:
1. Happy -> smiling, hyper, all that shit.
2. Neutral -> no facial expression, distant, dazed.
3. Sad -> crying, depressed, drama.
4. Angry -> as in, furious. doesn't happen often.

There is no such thing as a "weakened emotion" for me (dunno how to put it). I just give everything or nothing. I always do, for some reason, no matter what situation. What is wrong with me, seriously...

/P.