The thing is that I seem to mirror people's feelings for me. If a guy shows me that he likes me and talks to me and makes a move on me, I just kind of go along with it and my feelings just adjust themselves. I think "adjust" is actually a pretty accurate description. The puppy flirted with me and then fell in love. I loved him back. Now that he's away, I realize that it's a lie when I tell him I love him. I just like him as a person now. And then there's GC who's close and in my reach and also cares for me. So I care for him too. It's like I'm just a mirror. I'm incapable of really loving, so I basically live off other people' feelings. And that makes me hate myself.
/P.
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