What's going on in my head?
Many things. Usually a few things at the same time. I call it parallel thinking.
Scary things. Like killing people and the monster hiding in my closet and the shadow man following my every step but when I turn around he isn't there.
Pleasant things. Like a new recipe I found for strawberry jam and the bright sky after the rain and my soft bed.
Funny things. Like YD's jokes and filming a scene but failing because everyone's laughing their heads off and my face when I squash it while looking into a mirror.
Sad things. Like coming back home but feeling like I want to go out again as soon as possible and my brother being late again and missing my bunny rabbit.
Freaky things. Like wanting to learn how to fly and imagining that I have telekinetic abilities and pretending that time stands still so I can scream into my pillow as long as I want but no-one can hear so no-one can disturb me.
Things that make me "me". Things that make me hope that I'm not the only one like this. Things that make me scared that I might be crazy after all.
I don't want to be crazy. I want to be normal and live a normal life. I don't want to be shut out because I'm different. I want to be me, but it's so hard that I prefer being someone else instead. So which is which?
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