i caught him smoking

What is my purpose?
I want to be loved. I want to be admired. I want to be desired. I want to be fascinating. I want to be beautiful.
But is that a purpose? No.
I want to be happy. That's my purpose. I want to be happy with myself. I want to be the person who can make me happy. If I can achieve that, I can start depending on others. But before that, I need to learn how to love myself.