Mixed Feelings

I hate him. He says he hasn't got much time to write to me, but of course he can go play basketball with his homies any time. It takes two minutes to write a line or so, just to tell me he's alive and he cares. Obviously he's either the guy who doesn't realize he's hurting someone or he really just doesn't care. Okay. He told me a dozen times that he's not gonna make a good boyfriend. Still he could at least try! I'm ranting, I know, but it makes me really angry. It's just not fair. But still I really really miss him, which makes me even angrier because he doesn't deserve it. I hatelovenohatenolovenomissokaylove him.