stubborn as a mule tbh

There's this thing about GC that he lets people affect him so much that he feels sick. It happens to me too, but it hurts to watch the same thing happen to him. The worst thing is, he doesn't like to show it. He just kind of suffers in silence and refuses to acknowledge that I can see that he's bothered by something. And I can't do anything to help him because of it. I hate it so much. Not being able to make his pain go away.

/P.

things i'm terrified of

• the future
• the past
• insignificance
• oblivion
• being a disappointment
• being insecure

The list could go on and on.

The worst part is that the last thing on the list is at the same time something that makes me angry so much I want to destroy something.

/P. 

i'm worse than most fourteen-year-old horny boys and that means something

I've been writing more and more poetry recently. All I can write is poetry, actually. Nothing else comes out when I try.

I also feel like a rabbit in heat. In the good way. Except having sex at school is a big big no-no, so I have to waaaait and waaaaaaaaait and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait. Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.